Sunday, August 31, 2008
♥ 10:17 AM
The callHaven't been updating in a while.
It's been a tiring but exciting journey as an AlphaTracker - we went through Prophetic Ministries I this week and it was such an awesome experience knowing that the Lord speaks prophetically through every single one of us.
Pastor Danny's message yesterday evening confirmed some things which the Lord has been speaking to me about, and I guess to me, this issue is pretty much a done deal.
However, I'm going to continue seeking the Lord and trusting Him to open the appropriate doors in His time.
Went shopping yesterday and bought a whole lot of stuff as companions for my new purchases in KL - well actually it's only 3 articles of clothing - which are black (with a bit of white).
Will look forward to wearing them in the week to come as we advance into week 4(already??) of Track.
MIT is coming right up and there's a part of me that remains apprehensive, probably due to the fact that I've never been away from home for such an extended period of time before, and possibly brought on by my packing woes.
There's so much I want to share, yet words are not coming as easily to me as I would like them to.
For now, this is all my brain can generate.
*~and you'll never know till you get there~*
Monday, August 18, 2008
♥ 8:42 PM
UglinessComes in many forms.
Mere physical unattractiveness is simply insufficient to cause someone to appear ugly in the eyes of others.
More often than not, it is the heart of an individual which has the power to determine the beauty of a person.
I believe this is why the Lord teaches us to guard our hearts.
The weekend trip to KL with my cell has shown me the inadequacies of some of my cell members, as well as the ugliness which lies buried deep within me.
Self-centredness, pettyness and disregard for others were some of the things which were revealed as facades were torn down during our time there.
Personally, a friendship which I have come to treasure has been rendered valueless in the eyes of the other party.
And the truth hurts. Kinda.
I guess somehow, I've always known that fact; choosing to ignore something doesn't make it go away.
Tempers flared, and I've stumbled him as well as myself.
Apologies have gone out, but to no avail.
It is frightening at first, partly because I know that this is the start of a battle that is spiritual, as I prepare for the local evangelism mission coming up as well as the mission trip next month.
But I'm well aware that where the Lord guides, He provides; as long as I'm fighting the battles that He wants me to fight, He will give the victory to me.
As for now, I'm so tired that I just want to curl up on my bed and sleep the hurt away.
Missing you a whole lot.
*~and you'll never know till you get there~*
Saturday, August 09, 2008
♥ 12:23 PM
The Father's love...Ensures that we will never be forgotten.
Promises that we will be forgiven.
Crowns as princes and princesses.
It has been an absolutely wild ride with my Lord but I'm lovin' it all!
Will be commencing AlphaTrack (surprise surprise!) this Tuesday and it'll be a time of seeking Him and confirming my call during the next 3 months.
AlphaTrack 31st Batch - I'm so excited to be a part of it. We'll be going to Manila for our MIT, and although I don't know exactly what's in store for all the Trackers, I'm more than willing to step out of my comfort zone and to go where the Spirit leads.
After many months of prayer and discovery, this is where I am.
Where I will be, only God knows.
I know I'm filled to be emptied againThis seed I received I will sow *~and you'll never know till you get there~*
Friday, August 01, 2008
♥ 7:47 PM
Lost in transitI've a passion, a great desire, this urge to do more, to give all, to Daddy.
It's been a momentous journey; I've had my ups and downs, but the Lord never gave up on me.
Is conviction enough?
If so, then I have faith that the barricades which bar me from the destination the Spirit has placed in this once stone-cold heart of mine will be torn down.
The jeers, the scepticism, the detractors will stand in my way no more.
If it's in His will, then I say, "Here I am Lord, send me."
More for You, more of You.
You never give up on me Though I’m weak You are strong You told me I still belong No, You never, never give up on me *~and you'll never know till you get there~*
