Sunday, July 31, 2005
♥ 11:14 PM
Miss Melancholic arrivesOoo...Alliteration. Whatever.
Vivace today. Everything went rather well in my opinion. Lots of people, lots of interaction, lots of afterthought. Not good, especially if you are so sleep-deprived that you are unable to function normally.
Remember this: rubbing your happiness in the face of the person whose heart you have inflicted indelible pain upon is not the kindest thing in the world to do. Well, guess that's my problem and I will have to learn how to deal with this.
There is to be no more pretense. I'll be gone. That's the end. Do not come seeking me out anymore. I cannot take this much longer.
I will move on. I will heal. I will laugh again. Do not concern yourself with anything to do with me.
I am a big girl now. I know how to care for myself.
In any case, thanks for the memories. They would undoubtedly stay with me for a long time yet.
*~and you'll never know till you get there~*
Thursday, July 28, 2005
♥ 5:12 PM
I have a date with youIn 2 months, I would have all the answers I need.
In 2 months, I would finally be free of the hellish emotions which have stifled me.
In 2 months, everything would be over.
I can almost hear my fragile heart breaking.
*~and you'll never know till you get there~*
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
♥ 5:13 PM
What I like about youHow do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
1) I adore the manner in which you smile that disarmingly charming smile of yours. It never fails to make my heart leap a little.
2) The look of concentration which you display whenever you are engaged in doing something gives you a manly edge I cannot resist.
3) Your gentle teasing makes me feel right at home.
4) Clumsy you may be at times, but that only makes you seem more human to me. Never change. I genuinely appreciate you the way you are.
5) You are one of the few thus far who can put up with my fiery temper. Your acceptance makes me want to love you more.
6) The way in which you try to dress up whenever we meet fills my heart with joy. Bet you never knew that.
7) For putting up with a girl born with a huge appetite for expensive food, you deserve a standing ovation.
8) To be able to walk around aimlessly without complaint when we are out makes you my number one guy. (Besides God, of course)
9) Your instinct to protect me unfailingly is admirable. I feel so safe in your arms.
10) You know exactly how I wish to be held and you do just that so very well. The way you envelope my hand so securely in yours, the manner in which you hold me after a long day. Perfection.
Reflection is what I have been doing, and I realise that I am happiest when I am with you. Emotive words do not come easily to me and I only wish that I have told you how much you meant - still mean - to me when I had the chance.
Darl, I never told you this, but I loved you and I still do. Be happy. That's all I ask.
*~and you'll never know till you get there~*
Sunday, July 24, 2005
♥ 7:09 PM
S'poreans rude? Think again!The Singapore Zoological Gardens - known simply as "zoo" to Singaporeans - have undergone some rather remarkable changes since the last time I visited.
Had a good time there with my family despite the rain, and we walked - yes, WALKED - round the entire place without taking the tram. Not such a big deal, but factor in the idea that I was on my feet for hours yesterday (in heels no less) and you have yourself one pair of seriously tired feet. Poor things.
There, I could observe certain disturbing behavioural traits. Tourists - Chinese ones to be exact - showed no grace nor courtesy. It was a chore to be stuck with them at any given exhibit, given their penchant for obscenely loud chatter, and their love for shoving others in their way.
Now, this cannot be right. If ladies and gentlemen from other countries like India can conduct themselves in an exemplery manner, then it would not be too much of us to demand the same from the Chinese.
Come on people, you are adults. You should know better than to think that just because you are paying to visit Singapore does NOT give you any right to abuse citizens residing in this fine island city. I am appalled. For the record, I paid good money to visit the zoo as well.
The good news is, the horror does not end there.
After our refreshing 3 hour walk, we patronised a supermarket closer to home, had dinner and went home.
There, at the lobby of our condo, we met the worst kind of neighbour anyone can have - rude obnoxious ones. Lugging our numerous bags of purchases, we entered the lift just after a certain lass from China and we watched in disgust as she stood there, close to the lift buttons but did not lift a finger to hold the door open for us. I had to rush in, and reach out uncomfortably to do so.
Not satisfied with the way she behaved, I commented that she should have held the lift door open and that it was common courtesy to do so. This sory excuse for a lady merely stared at me, making me wonder if she is really as rude as I had thought her to be or if she was simply too intellectually challenged to follow my words.
We may complain about a graceless society, but before pointing our manicured talons at hapless Singaporeans, let us observe the going-ons around us. You might be surprised to note that the culprits are often not Singaporeans.
How often have you boarded a bus or the mrt, only to find that these inconsiderate beings are the ones hogging the seats meant for the elderly and the young? I know that I am not alone in thinking so badly of this group of people.
No, let me just say that I am not against the idea of recruiting foreign talents. For the record, our counterparts from Thailand, Philippines and India - just to name a few - are beautiful people and I have no complaints whatsoever. They are pleasant, humble and easy-going; simply a joy to be around.
The next time you condemn someone for putting these Chinese down, stop, think, and you may discover that the cliches and stereotypes surrounding them are there for a very very good reason - they might have just originated from true sources.
*~and you'll never know till you get there~*
Wednesday, July 20, 2005
♥ 11:08 PM
Cheap and goodCollected my new matriculation card from the city campus yesterday and was awed by how good the new school is turning out to be.
What did not impress me was how badly printed my picture on the card was. Thanks to the less than perfect job done, I have a WHITE dot (!) on my chin. How gratifying. I am feeling so pretty now.
Add in the dreary weather yesterday and you have the ingredients of a lip-smackingly perfect day (if you're into S&M).
Stumbled upon a delightful little cafe on Purvis Street christened Miss Clarity Cafe and let's just say that I have found my favourite eatery for the time being. In fact, I dined there today as well. 2 days in the row. The food and the proprietress are to die for.
Think about it, $5.50 gets you a serving of perfectly roasted chicken (crisp golden brown skin and moist flesh) with mushroom stuffing. Yummy. Desert came in the form of a slice of irresistible apple pie with a sticky, chewing apple caramel of sort housed within a flaky, soft and absolutely wonderful pastry costing $2.50.
Urgh, just thinking about the food makes me hungry. The ring of blubber around my waist is jumping for joy at the prospect of possible ahem...expansion.
Dinner yesterday came in the form of a set meal for $8.80. I was served a bowl of steaming home-made corn-n-musroom soup as an appetizer. This was proceeded by an ample portion of fresh dory fillet and a cup of fragrant milk tea. Dessert assumed the form of bread-and-butter pudding which I could not get enough of.
Think that's the end? Not. I enjoyed a second portion of dessert soon after that. In case you're wondering, I had the apple pie. That's 2 days in succession. Would be patronising the cosy restaurant again come this Friday. Yay!
I think I'm seriously hooked. This cannot be good.
*~and you'll never know till you get there~*
Monday, July 18, 2005
♥ 12:27 PM
ReflectionYes, I haven't been updating my blog. Sorry about that. Just for the record, I'm still sick. Don't ask me why, I've no idea as to how a simple flu bug can irritate me for about 2 weeks now.
NDP NE show went rather ok, though I cannot say the same for the unhealthy dinner served - 2-piece KFC meal complete with a bun and a serving of whipped potato. Argh, this is bad. Bad. Bad.
For those who follow the news, you would know that the whole NKF fiasco has got Singapore talking. I am no supporter of NKF and it's lavish, almost outlandish manner of fund-raising, but it is my opinion - mine and mine alone - that the blame cannot be put squarely on TT Durai's aching shoulders.
Think about this: we are brought up to hanker after the luxuries which money and fame can bring us, yet we condemn others when they follow the very teachings which we peg our lives to.
Would it be fair to say that he is a fiend just because he wants the best for himself and his family?
I have no intention of passing judgment on anyone here. What I would like to raise would be that do not be so quick to blame Durai for being perfectly human.
Yea, and now, I have to go grab a couple of pieces of tissue. Stupid flu.
*~and you'll never know till you get there~*
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
♥ 10:50 AM
I will surviveHave been out of comission for a week due to my jam-packed schedule - 90% slacking, 10% work - as well as a nasty bout of flu which continues to bug me after a week.
I have literally not smelt the world in 4 days and I am going out of my mind. What makes matters worse would be that I have been surrounded by good food and offers by my father to take me to fancy places to dine. Argh, this is so frustrating.
On another note, I attended the first NE show (NDP rehearsal) and it was a surreal experience. To be able to gain access to all parts of the supreme court was rather exciting. To experience the exuberance first hand was even better.
However fun the event was, I would have to say that the cherry on top of a fantastically delicious cake was being able to meet so many people and make so many friends. Thank God for that.
I simply cannot wait for the next show this coming Saturday. Although I am hoping that this time round, I would be able to breath in and smell the action (and taste the sumptuous - not! - pre-packed dinners).
*~and you'll never know till you get there~*
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
♥ 10:58 PM
When life slaps you in the face...Have you ever felt so insignificant that no one would notice your absence even if you should crawl into a corner and die?
Have you ever felt like you are worthless, even in the eyes of those you love?
Have you ever felt so betrayed that even having to speak about it hurts?
I have.
Imagine someone saying to you that he got where he got in life because he has what it takes and you don't.
Ouch.
My point exactly.
Don't even begin to judge me. And don't for one second think so highly of yourself.
You will be humbled. It's only a matter of time.
*~and you'll never know till you get there~*
Saturday, July 02, 2005
♥ 7:07 PM
Double-edged SwordSorry, I haven't been horribly active recently when it comes to blogging.
Have been involved in the matriculation process for freshmen and let me just declare that it has been rather hellish.
Imagine standing on your feet and yammering non-stop for a few hours without breaks. Now picture yourself doing that for 4 whole days.
Well, it's not that I'm complaining - not really - I've had the opportunity to meet and work with the mkost fabulous people ever.
In all honesty, I have been dreading this as my preferred manner of spending my holidays would be to concuss at home and to just do nothing. However, if not for this matriculation process, I would have missed out on meeting and interacting with my peers.
Awesome experience, really.
Then there's also a certain somebody - the secret will stay with me (although I can safely say that he is NOT a freshman) - whom I find myself increasingly attracted to. Before you call me shallow, let me say that he did not fit my criteria of "handsome", neither was he somebody I found outstanding at first.
So far, only one special individual has managed to charm the socks off me from the first instant we met. And the new kid on the block ain't him.
Yep, let's just say that life just got a little bit more interesting for this girl here. Let's see how things go during the next 2 days of matriculation.
I can't wait!
*~and you'll never know till you get there~*
