~*The Wonder. The Majesty*~

Sunday, February 24, 2008

♥ 8:12 PM

Beautifully Captivating

I want to be beautiful
And make you stand in awe
Look inside my heart
And be amazed
I want to hear you say
Who I am is quite enough
I just want to be worthy of love
And beautiful.

~Bethany Dillon

There are so many thoughts running through this head of mine.

I try, but no, it's not enough.

It never is.

This is wrong, I know it is.

Nonetheless, this stubborn heart of mine still misses you.

Just that little bit.

*~and you'll never know till you get there~*

Friday, February 15, 2008

♥ 2:06 PM

Stupid cupid

Let's see, another Valentine's Day has come and gone.

Like I told Anthony last night, it really doesn't make a difference to me.

Yes, I admit, that's partially because I am still single.

Frankly, there's no girl on earth who will remain totally unmoved by some show of gallantry being bestowed on her.

Frankly.

So here I am, 3 hours before my GMAT, trying to surreptitiously blog while attempting to look busy.

And trying to forget the terrible lunch I just had.

Life's so interesting ain't it?

*~and you'll never know till you get there~*

Sunday, February 10, 2008

♥ 11:48 AM

Reflection

I look into the mirror and I see....myself.

I wonder if my desperate cries are heard.

She's not perfect, but God's working on her, so give her a chance.

The first week at work was a short one.

It was also one whereby doubts came knocking on my door.

If this is not God's best for me, then giving the best years of my life trying to achieve what others think is good, is promising, is satisfying, will be utterly pointless.

I'm just a little bit sad, a little bit disappointed, a little bit tired.

Standing there all alone last night, just staring into the world which Daddy has created, an anxiety wrapped itself around my heart, constricting it, and leaving me giddy, breathless, and terrified.

Hearing your voice last night was what kept me intact; you still sound the same, you're still that person who can make me smile.

It's reassuring how Daddy saved me from the brink of a spiritual meltdown, simply by a short conversation with someone close to my heart.

My heart hurts so badly.

And it scares me, so very very much.

*~and you'll never know till you get there~*

Friday, February 01, 2008

♥ 11:02 AM

A new act opens

Work begins on Monday and while I am looking forward to getting a taste of what the vicious working world is like, a part of me remains apprehensive.

To be a Christian in the midst of cynical, hardened non-believers, is going to be difficult.

To be an ambassador of Christ will take a whole lot of effort; scorn, disbelief and even disadain might follow.

To continue being intimate with Daddy will require added commitment. With work, and my pursue of my Masters (hopefully) coming up, every second will mean the world to me.

But, despite all the limitations, I serve a faithful, giving, loving and all-powerful God.

I shall not attempt to confine Him to man's interpretation and measurement of who God really is.

At this juncture, I've been challenged to keep my gaze leveled on Him, to maintain a deep level of intimacy with Him, to allow Him to retain title of my first Love, my all.

So it's with confidence that I declare that in Him, all things are possible.

Just let me be a shining light for You, my Father.

"We are therefore Christ's ambassadors, as though God were making His appeal through us..."
~2 Corinthians 5:20

*~and you'll never know till you get there~*