Friday, September 28, 2007
♥ 5:32 PM
Lips of an angel
Honey why you calling me so late?
It's kinda hard to talk right now.
Honey why are you crying? Is everything okay?
I gotta whisper 'cause I can't be too loud
Well, my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And, yes, I've dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me?
Will it start a fight?
No I don't think she has a clue
Well my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was youI
guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
Honey why you calling me so late?
I've liked this song ever since partner Jerms introduced it to me during one of those horrifyingly long workdays.
Memories have this special way of sneaking up on you when you least expect them to.
Of course, they bring no more pain; only a wry smile and a chuckle at my own girly silliness.
It's really like how Nick Vujicic puts it: we go through these trials, and who knows, 10 years down the road, we're the ones gently guiding those who find themselves in the same situation.
God has a plan and purpose for everything. We cannot fathom His great wisdom but this we can do: to choose to follow Him with all the faith and all the love He has put within our bosoms.
Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everything I am for Your kingdom's cause
*~and you'll never know till you get there~*
Saturday, September 22, 2007
♥ 11:52 PM
Simply....me
I'm so very disappointed.
It's difficult to keep loving without any form of reciprocity, and I'm at the brink of just letting go and giving up.
Exhausted is perhaps the wrong word to describe how I feel now; it is too narrow a word to encapsulate this tumult of emotions that are so draining.
I find myself yearning for a nice, strong shoulder to lean on, a warm hand to hold; I wonder where you are now.
Somehow, things just don't seem alright, and people appear so detached, so far away.
But I still choose to praise You, my Everything.
I still choose to trust You, my shelter from the storm.
I can't deal with this....with you....any longer.
So I'm giving up....and letting you go.
*~and you'll never know till you get there~*
Thursday, September 20, 2007
♥ 10:08 AM
Coy Law
Just finished my Company Law presentation.
And it went relatively well, thanks be to my most wonderful Daddy.
Presentations usually do not faze me, but this one somehow did.
Thoughts of my inadequacy, my lack of preparedness almost crippled me before my group took to the floor this morning, but somehow, God kept me focused on Him.
"You're my princess and I'll be with you. I love you."
That gentle voice was so soft, but it certainly didn't go unnoticed. That assurance gave me the strength to go on; this morning, it enabled me to do my best for my Father who's watching from way up there. =)
The walk hasn't been all that good, and somehow, I seem to have lost focus. When the world comes crashing over us, it is remarkably easy to just allow yourself to be engulfed by those powerful waves.
I've said things I shouldn't have, done things I shouldn't have, and grieved my Daddy and the people around me in ways which I shouldn't have.
But He forgives, and this morning, while spending time with Him, He called me back to Him.
And this time, I heard, and obeyed.
He's faithful even when we're faithless. He loves, even when we are horribly unlovable.
And that's love, not that we love Him, but that He loved us first.
Thank You, for not letting go.
*~and you'll never know till you get there~*
Saturday, September 15, 2007
♥ 10:57 PM
That gentle Voice....of truth
I don't know why that verse was given to me this morning.
I don't know why I am feeling this way.
I don't know why I'm sick yet again when so many things are waiting to be done.
I don't know why I'm so utterly drained, so very very exhuasted.
I don't have have all the anwers; but hey, I guess at the end of it all, I don't really need them.
Not when my God's omnipotent, omnipresent, omniscient. And that best of all, He loves all His children with all His gracious, merciful heart.
There's Him there, calling out to His children, urging them to take His hand so that He can keep them safe by His side.
There's Him again, cradling us in His warm embrace, comforting us and taking our fears away.
There's Daddy, smiling at His little ones take their first steps; when we fall, He will be on hand to pick us up again.
Here's Daddy, always here, always near, always faithful.
I don't know when I'll eventually emerge from this frighteningly dark tunnel, but one thing I'm certain of: I'll never walk alone.
It's never about me Lord. Please make it all about You.
~Not because of who I am, but because of what You've done
~Not because of what I've done, but because of who You are
*~and you'll never know till you get there~*
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
♥ 1:35 PM
That nagging feeling
I've been feeling unsettled since the bunch of us returned from YMLC on Sunday evening.
Somehow, the hope doesn't quite die.
Somehow, detachment and yearning can come together, regardless of how paradoxical they seem to be.
But I know that my one remedy comes from Him.
From knowing Him, from taking in more of Him, from relying implicitly on His generous provisions.
Prayer has been fruitful, especially this morning, and while the annoying buzz in my head and my heart has yet to subside fully, I've gotten my focus back.
I look to Him, my King, my Lover, my Friend, and noone else.
This life is not mine, my Lord, but Yours.
"And He died for all, that those who live should no longer live for themselves but for Him who died for them and was raised again."
~ 2 Corinthians 5: 15
Help me run this race to completion Daddy.
*~and you'll never know till you get there~*
Sunday, September 09, 2007
♥ 9:52 PM
YMLC 2007
Awesome time.
Awesome place.
Awesome people.
Awesome awesome God.
The schedule was gruelling, and I have barely slept the past couple of days, but God has been good.
More than good.
I now have my direction, my focus, and a new.....distraction.
Anyway here are some pictures =)
That's our room
That's the wonderful view from our room =)
Pea, Yiling, Sharon, me!
On the ferry to Batam....bleah!
Randonmess after a tiring session...
Say cheese PLMC!
My beautiful mentor group =) Group 3 rox!
I praise the Lord for new visions, new passion, and....him =)
I have no idea as to where everything is headed, but I will place my trust in Him.
That's all that matters - that He's here with me. Right here with me.
~You are beautiful beyond description.
*~and you'll never know till you get there~*
Thursday, September 06, 2007
♥ 9:33 PM
Hello...goodbye!
Will be away at Batam till Sunday, so watch this space for pictures.
YMLC here we come!
"Dear children, let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth."
~1 John 3:18
Daddy, help me.
*~and you'll never know till you get there~*
Wednesday, September 05, 2007
♥ 3:12 PM
Godliness with contentment is great gain
In between completing all my work and readings before jetting off to Batam for YMLC this weekend, I managed to squeeze in some time to watch The Pursuit of Happyness in its entirety.
It made me realise just how much I ought to be thankful for.
The people whom I've taken for granted, those simple pleasures of life I've been offered abundantly; the good Lord has been more than generous.
For each day which the Lord has given me, I praise Him.
For my wonderful family and the warm, cosy roof over our heads, I praise Him.
For being able to worship my God without any dire consequences, I praise Him.
For those lovely individuals He has gifted me with, I praise Him.
For the struggles which I have to endure, I praise Him too.
Happiness, for me, comes from knowing that I am loved and remembered; from the little things people do. Anyone who has been around to witness the little smiles which light up my face when those random text messages are received can attest to that fact.
In the same manner, my joy stems from the knowledge that I'm Daddy's beloved, and that He will never reject nor disappoint.
On a jauntier note, Love Actually remains a favourite, even after having viewed it so many many times.
It was interesting to note that love is not a concept which requires any learning. Somehow, anyone, regardless of standing or background, is inherently programmed by our Creator to seek that elusive relationship which can provide...love.
Anyone. That includes me.
It was also funny to discover how obtuse I really am through the course of watching a movie like Love Actually.
You can imagine lil' sis' reaction when I couldn't, for the life of me, understand how taking an entire video of just one person in particular indicates that surely, there is some romantic interest involved.
And that's the way I am. Ambiguity confuses the daylight out of me; it always has, and always will to a certain degree I guess.
On hindsight, that is also probably why I have inadvertantly "led some people on" due to the fact that I would always view them as "very nice guys" if nothing overt is being said or done.
Hints don't work, mainly because I simply fail to catch them 99% of the time. And that's Sharon's gripe too: that all-too-often, her indirect requests or comments are ignored. =P
No matter, I've utmost faith that my Creative genious of a Father would not fail to capture my attention when Mr S shows up eventually.
"Jesus looked at them and said, 'With man, this is impossible, but not with God; all things are possible with God.'"
~Mark 10:27
You alone I praise.
*~and you'll never know till you get there~*
Sunday, September 02, 2007
♥ 1:41 PM
We're together again
Just got back from our weekly trip to the supermarket and well, let's just say that it was a less than ideal outing.
It saddened me to see my father raising his voice in public, and belittling my mummy in this manner.
This degenerated into a sense of abject desolation when I saw the look on her face as she tried to explain herself while holding back her tears.
It's so very difficult trying to be that exemplary woman of God Daddy has called me to be when relationships at home begin to deteriorate.
I blame myself for not speaking up for her.
I berate myself even more for adding to her grief with my callous remarks spoken in a red haze of frustration.
But I know that our God is a God who answers prayers. He's a God who is always near to those who love Him and call on Him. He's a God who is also my Father.
And I have utmost faith that in His own divine timing, my parents will be saved once more.
On a different note, I met up with Su, Mary and Cheryl for our version of the last supper before Su returns to Yale on Monday.
It was a good time of catching up, and it helped that the food was quite delicious.
Till the time we all convene again, I'll miss each and everyone of you babes oh-so-much.
"When my heart was grieved and my Spirit embittered, I was senseless and ignorant; I was a brute beast before You.
Yet I am always with You; You hold me by my right hand. You guide me with Your counsel, and afterward You will take me into glory."
~Psalm 73:21-23
Lord, I need You. So very very much.
*~and you'll never know till you get there~*