~*The Wonder. The Majesty*~

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

♥ 11:03 AM

I choose....to follow You

When You close doors, You do so not to harm, but to prosper.

When a window of opportunity slams shut in your face, there's hurt.

But in this haze of distress, there is hope, and ultimate victory.

Under Your watchful eye, I know that I cannot go wrong. In remaining obedient to You, I know that through the pain, I'll grow even stronger in my faith.

No Daddy, I'm not angry.

There's no denying the surprise, and the momentary anguish where I felt my lungs constricting so tightly that my breath was knocked out of me.

There's no running away from what could possibly take place in front of my eyes in the future.

But in You, my Jesus, I have the victory.

In You, my Jesus, I can weather this storm.

For every experience, for every encounter, for every person, for every breath that I take, for every prayer answered, for every single little thing in my life, thank You.

*~and you'll never know till you get there~*

Saturday, January 26, 2008

♥ 10:27 PM

Trading up

I'm trading in my dreams for His.

Dying to myself so that His perfect will can be fulfilled.

The decision wasn't easy, but I've laid all of myself there, at the altar last evening during YA gathering.

A certain somebody wasn't there. A good thing if you ask me.

A manifestation of a certain trait this afternoon drove the message painfully home.

I'm 23. Going on 24.

I'm Daddy's girl. That will never change.

Now if only the muddle in my head can be taken out with today's trash.

Your will, Your plans, Your hopes, Your desires.

Nothing else will do.

*~and you'll never know till you get there~*

Thursday, January 24, 2008

♥ 6:20 PM

23

The current jersey number of one David Beckham.

And my current age.

Turned 2-3 today and well...hmm...feels just like any other day.

Except for the many many wishes and the excellent lunch with Mr Sunshine =)))

Japanese ala carte buffet....hmm....food was ok (save for the sashimi) but company was WONDERFUL!

Oh yes, the sushi cake was really really special as well. Like I told Sunshine, it's my first experience with a cake which isn't technically a cake =P

I really thank God for seeing me through, for never giving up, for just being who He is.

Suyin, Jimmy, Yasmin, Huixian, Grace, Keris, Daphne, Claire, Aloy, Janice, another Janice, Joel, Swee Soon, Mei Ching and Siti - thanks soooo much for the birthday greetings via Facebook!

Fukhai, James, Carol, Luke, Jon, Charlene, CY, Cheryl, Kevin, Peixin, Frank, charlene and Valerie - thanks for the SMSes =)

Samantha - thanks for the greeting via Clement!

Kenneth - thanks for the usual phone call...you're a life-saver!

Frank - thanks for the e-card...haven't gotten those in a while =)

Ivee, Gerry and Christopher - thanks for the greetings in person!

Daddy, Mummy and Sharon "Mei-Mei" Ho, thanks for everything and everything!

One year older, one year wiser (hopefully) and one step closer to Abba Father =)

I may not know what the future holds, but You do.

And that's enough.

*~and you'll never know till you get there~*

Sunday, January 20, 2008

♥ 11:12 AM

A pleasant surprise

An unexpected birthday surprise awaited me last evening after service, with the folks from Mimosa and Light celebrating my 23rd year on this earth with me, albeit a few days earlier.

Carol, Frank, Kenneth, Jonathan, Isaiah, Zel, Charis, Andry, Jason, Rachel, Peixin, ZY, Rebecca, Kelvin, and Cheryl, thanks for making this a most memorable evening for me =)

Special mention goes out to Carol dearie for putting together this surprise, Frank for making the effort to go down a little earlier to reserve our table (sorry for making you miss the last part of service), and of course, Kenneth, for the ride home and the pretty candles.

Loved the clutch and the BIG ice-cream birthday cake from Swensen's!

Thank You, Daddy, for blessing me with each and every one of them.

And thank You too, for blessing me with those who were unable to make it last night.

Rachel, Edlyn, Anthony, Kenny, Jaena, Derrick, Jessica, Justin - you know that I'm ever-so-blessed to have met you too =)

I praise my God and Provider too for my family - celebrated Mummy's birthday yesterday at Changi Beach Club - and I continue to hold on to the precious hope that this year will be a year of breakthroughs for my family.

My left eye is not recovering as well as it should be, but I'm putting my faith in Jehovah Rapha, my Healer. I know that He's right here, making sure that I'm doing perfectly well.

At the end of it all, everything comes from Him, and I really am so grateful.

For every one.

For everything.

For Him just being the perfect Him.

Thank You, so very very much.

Now if only....if only.

I don't quite know anymore.

*~and you'll never know till you get there~*

Friday, January 18, 2008

♥ 2:17 PM

Clarity

Thanks to the wonders of Lasik, my vision's now 6/6 without any aid from spectacles and contact lenses.

I praise Daddy for the wonderful doctor and the smooth procedure which went off without a hitch, and also for the interview which landed in my lap this morning.

What will happen from now on I know not, but I know Who's in charge, and that's good enough.

Alright, more updates when I am fully able to use the computer.

For now, I need to rest these eyes of mine =)

*~and you'll never know till you get there~*

Saturday, January 12, 2008

♥ 11:04 AM

Que sara sara

Whatever will be will be.

Well, not exactly.

Whatever is God's will will be.

Does that make sense? I hardly know.

Prayed a prayer for you today. Prayed a prayer for you yesterday. Prayed a prayer for the us that may never be.

You, bathed in the warm glow of candlelight, never looked more dashing.

I, watching you, never felt so conflicted in recent times.

Do I see something in you that the majority of the world doesn't?

Apparently so.

Am I demented, absolutely crazy to want this?

Perhaps, perhaps.

Is this the one and only post which I will dedicate to you?

Frankly, I have not a clue.

Daddy, let Your perfect will be done in this matter.

*~and you'll never know till you get there~*

Friday, January 11, 2008

♥ 5:13 PM

You, Lord

"For consider your calling, brethren, that there were not many wise according to the flesh, not many mighty, not many noble; but God has chosen the foolish things of the world to shame the wise, and God has chosen the weak things of the world to shame the things which are strong, and the base things of the world and the despised God has chosen, the things that are not, so that He may nullify the things that are, so that no man may boast before God."

1 Corinthians 1: 26-29

Time to look at things as they are.

To take off the laurels we have put on ourselves.

To get off the high horse we have been riding.

In my wretchedness, He found me. In my brokenness, He healed me. And in my arrogance, He has humbled me.

Time to focus on my beautiful Lord, and Him alone.

'Cos no one else comes close to You.

*~and you'll never know till you get there~*

Tuesday, January 08, 2008

♥ 9:34 PM

Somewhere in between

All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

So the praying, the waiting, and the thinking goes on.

I wonder what's it about you that has me mesmerised.

*~and you'll never know till you get there~*

Monday, January 07, 2008

♥ 9:22 PM

Yayness

The meet-up was awesome.

The meet-up was awesome.

The meet-up was awesome.

Thanks Mr Sunshine! =)

You, my Lord, are truly magnificent.

*~and you'll never know till you get there~*

Sunday, January 06, 2008

♥ 9:13 PM

How Do I Love Thee?

How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of being and ideal grace.
I love thee to the level of every day's
Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light.
I love thee freely, as men strive for right.
I love thee purely, as they turn from praise.
I love thee with the passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints. I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life; and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death.

~Elizabeth Barrett Browning

That's idealistic me speaking again.

Maybe, deep down, everyone's the same.

Anyway, got a new phone today - a mahogany RAZR V9.

And oh, unnamed friend invited me on a trek through MacRitchie's tree-top trail, followed by coffee/tea/unidentified beverage on Thursday/ Friday.

Oh yes, said friend/gentleman would even carry my laptop (??), drinks, towel and other related paraphernalia for me.

Will remember to give due consideration and answer. Patience, that's the key.

Lunch and shopping with Mr Sunshine tomorrow.

Someone's birthday on Thursday.

Kenneth's coming over in a while's time; better go get ready.

It's so hard not to love someone as terribly thoughtful and sweet as him. In a friendly way, but of course.

I'm blogging in a disjointed, dangerously incoherent manner.

Must be the alcohol that has never been consumed.

More of You, Daddy.

And less of myself.

*~and you'll never know till you get there~*

Tuesday, January 01, 2008

♥ 7:17 PM

The year of new beginnings

Pastor Dom's sermon yesterday during watchnight service was unbelievably powerful in a prophetic way.

Brand new seasons, changes, challenges; there is so much that is about to happen, and I am glad for that.

Time for new relationships (hopefully), new directions, new perspectives.

It was such a joy to usher in 2008 with the guys from my cell - Mimosa - and those from Light. Post-service, my home was invaded (at my encouraging) by about 15 of them, and I thank Daddy for the marvellous time of fellowship.

We watched a couple of movies together, ate a whole lotta food, and headed out from my place to East Coast at 5.30am to watch the first sunrise of the year.

And yes, I remain too awkward to hold down a decent conversation with said object of my affection.

The hilarity that ensued during our breakfast chat will stay with me for a long while yet. This time around, I've Kenneth to thank for being my gracious driver - next time, it's my turn =)

Slept a total of about 4 hours, slacked for a while, and will be headed out later for drinks with the girls.

I'm so utterly spent, but oh-so-very happy.

Thank You, for new beginnings.

*~and you'll never know till you get there~*