Monday, March 31, 2008
♥ 11:02 AM
This is...meLet's see, since the last time I've updated this little narcissistic shout-out space of mine, I've gone to church a couple more times, waited for about 45 minutes for a table at
Shokudo, visited
TNG again, turned up for a couple of cell-group meetings, and showed my face at
MOE's appointment briefing for prospective teachers.
Note: the last event is probably the one which many are unaware of, seeing that screaming out loud at the top of my lungs to whomever is keen to listen that I've made an abrupt, complete
switcharoo and decided to take on the honourable task of moulding the lives of Singapore's future leaders is not something which I would openly proclaim to the typical man on the street since I'm known to be friendly, but fiercely private, no?
Wow, so that was quite a mouthful.
Anyhow, I am at peace with where Daddy has chosen to take me, and although the idea of actually teaching unnerves me somewhat, I'm really psyched to take on the challenges which comes with the job.
If I begin to whine and whinge after 3 days on the job, you have my full permission to tickle me silly =P
In a totally unrelated incident, I was the happy recipient of 3 big hugs (!!) yesterday - 2 from my irrepressible Mr Sunshine and one from Luke =)
Yes, so I am guilty guilty guilty of having "touch" being one of my dominant love language - the other's "quality time", if you hadn't already guessed it.
So what's in store for me this week?
Re-reading Gary Chapman's "
The five Love Languages for Singles", bumming and catching up on some watchable, fluffy movies, cell group meeting, YA Gathering, and church.
Doesn't seem like a lot, but then again, I
am supposed to be resting till my new job begins.
*~and you'll never know till you get there~*
Monday, March 24, 2008
♥ 11:08 AM
ImperfectionMy very first Easter service at TCC was rather ok. I've always enjoyed Pastor Wilson's earnest preaching, and he did deliver good stuff =)
It's sobering to be reminded that we were sinners who sent our innocent Saviour to the cross. It's even more jarring to learn that we are still imperfect.
If I could take back the words, the harshness and the animosity, I would.
But I can't.
Words can edify, and they can also kill.
Wish I could say that mine belong to the former category.
It's no excuse to stumble a fellow brother-in-Christ, just because of my displeasure; God's perfect love doesn't work this way, and it never will.
It's so hard to apologise, when I know that we were both at fault.
Worse, it's so very very hard, because I don't know if my "sorry" will be accepted once again.
I do want to be that young lady that you want me to be.Daddy, imperfect me wants that so very much. *~and you'll never know till you get there~*
Monday, March 17, 2008
♥ 1:54 PM
RegretsI remember those times when I should have opened my mouth, but didn't.
I remember the Spirit's urging to go, take some action, but I held back.
I remember your gentle spirit, your kind smile, that glitter in your eyes, and your quiet confidence, and your fierce loyalty.
I remember you, calling us your own, when we weren't. Not biologically, at least.
Now, amongst the tears, the despair and the pain, that sense of regret couldn't be stronger. If only I had said something, done something, loved deeply.
The lives you've touched, the people you've loved, will remain as your legacy.
Make no doubt about it, you're truly my grandfather, in every sense of the word.
This is one painful wake-up call I never want to receive ever again. Daddy, teach me never to disregard Your precious call from now on. *~and you'll never know till you get there~*
Saturday, March 15, 2008
♥ 1:11 PM
.I'm frustrated.
With my inability to get another job, with the rejections I have received thus far, with my parents' manner of shoving just any job into my face, not caring if I had the slightest bit of interest in whatever they have been pushing me to apply for.
I know that I ought to trust in His provision, but somehow, that bit of disappointment is just sitting deep within me.
It's sickening. It really is.
How can a light which is burning out continue to shine brightly?
*~and you'll never know till you get there~*
Sunday, March 09, 2008
♥ 5:46 PM
Taking a long breathIt's strange how I am officially unemployed again after just over a month on my very first job.
It's sobering how the how process has brought me right back to where Daddy wants me to be again.
Selfish ambition, wrong motives, greed has governed my actions, leading me down the long road to eventual destruction.
But He didn't give up on me.
No, He didn't.
He drew me closer, whispered sweet words of encouragement to me, and so here I am, following my passion and His call.
Oh yes, so I managed to secure some time alone with
him yesterday
through no effort on my part.
I guess that's what it's like not to strive, and just allow my wonderfully perfect Daddy to work out His flawless plan.
It's really nice not having to worry, and to just rest in Him.
It's really, really nice.
*~and you'll never know till you get there~*
Wednesday, March 05, 2008
♥ 11:14 AM
Faith redefinedThe deed has been done.
Between the splendours offered by the world and the arms of my Daddy, I have made my choice.
I've made a wrong turn, but God allows detours.
Between the world and His kingdom, I have made my choice.
I don't know what awaits, or how my future is going to pan out from here, but I do know that as long as God is my shepherd, I will never want.
Time to rest, relax, recharge, realign. *~and you'll never know till you get there~*
