Friday, June 29, 2007
♥ 8:22 PM
Hillsong Conference 2007
My internship with Vital finallly came to a close this evening after 10 weeks - although come to think of it, it doesn't seem as if so much time has gone by.
The allowance may be pathetic, but the friendships found are priceless; at least to me they are.
I will miss the fun, the laughter, the absurdly long lunches and the nonsense we get up to during office hours.
Anyway, I will be away in Sydney from tomorrow till 8 July - the Hillsong Conference is finally upon us!
Till the time I return, here's a few ridiculous pictures to entertain you...
SMU interns...jump!
Say cheeze Vital interns!
My beloved work station =)
Jerms AKA my crazy partner
The galz~!
The bad boyz~!
*~and you'll never know till you get there~*
Thursday, June 28, 2007
♥ 8:29 AM
My rest
The sun rose this morning as it does every day, casting a warm, illuminating glow on the darkened lands.
Gradually, the world around begins to awake, filling the atmosphere with the wondrous sounds of life in all its vibrancy.
I conclude my time with Daddy with this picturesque sight of the sun gently heralding its majestic arrival every morning, and each time we embrace the dawn of a new day together, there is always something different.
His beauty resonates in every aorta of His marvelous creations.
Yes Lord, You give, but You also take away.
Each time my heart threatens to sink that little bit more, You shine Your love upon me, and I know that somehow everything will be made right again.
In this area of my life, let Your will be done. I am relinquishing my rights, my hopes, my emotions to You.
There is no longer any desire in me to struggle in vain to hold on to all this.
Sorry Daddy, for grieving You yet again.
Let me know that You hear me
Let me know Your touch
Let me know that You love me
Let that be enough
*~and you'll never know till you get there~*
Monday, June 25, 2007
♥ 8:50 AM
5 more...just 5 more
5 more working days to Sydney, and I am getting oh-so-restless.
Will certainly miss my parents, my warm bed, my smelly bolster, and my baby girls when I'm there.
Saw a beauitful rainbow on my way to work this morning, and it filled me with so much joy, knowing that this was my Daddy's way of romancing me. It was all I could do not to plaster my face to the car window to get a better look at the wonderous sight.
I have always loved this spectrum of light; a rainbow appears after a storm, heralding the arrival of something new, something fresh, something exciting.
The commencement of another chapter in my life has been something Daddy has been fervently preparing me for these past months.
It is like an earthly father lovingly coaxing his little baby to just take those first few steps of her life towards him. As she finally toddles with uncertainty towards him, you can almost feel the warmth of that grin which appears on his tender face.
Where the Almighty will take me, I do not know. What will happen even tomorrow is beyond me as well.
The Father knows what's best for His children, and He will gently guide them there, if they would alow Him to. From now, I will recline in the loving circle of his arms and watch the petals of my live unfurl.
There is no sin He cannot forgive, and no sinner He cannot love.
Just as I have allowed this miraculous truth to penetrate into the deep recesses of my soul, it is my fervent prayer that my loved ones will come to embrace the greatest gift of all in time to come.
For what is possibly the first time in my life, I feel serene.
"...No eye has seen,
no ear has heard,
no mind has conceived
what God has prepared for those who love him..."
~ 1 Corinthians 2:9
*~and you'll never know till you get there~*
Friday, June 22, 2007
♥ 8:43 AM
Bits and pieces
Friday's finally upon us =)
Let's see, this means that after today, I'll have....ONE week of work left before flying off to Sydney.
My daddy's coming home from Bahrain this morning, and I thank my big big big Daddy up there for taking care of my little daddy here so well - you can hear my jaw dropping and hitting the ground hard when he solicited for prayers before flying off on Wednesday night.
Have been hitting the stores and doing a bit of shopping these past 2 nights with my best gal pals - my mummy and my sister. And let's just say that the damage done financially is gargantuan.
Snagged myself some "proper clothes" for work - my mummy has been nagging about me going to work in "giam cai" - and also some pairs of shoes at really good prices. You gotta lurve The Sale Worth Waiting For.
Thanks mummy for lavishing those gifts on me!
We visited Fish & Co. for dinner and it was a whole lot of fun scoffing down all the food we ordered while trying not to barf from overeating.
I'm a very happy girl. See my Cheshire cat grin? =D
Oh yes, met a really sleepy bus driver on the bus this morning. It was quite an experience watching the fella nod off while trying not to get us all killed in some tragic accident.
Humorous manner of kicking start my day and the end of a long long week. Thank You Daddy =)
He has taken me to the banquet hall,
and His banner over me is love.
*~and you'll never know till you get there~*
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
♥ 8:35 PM
1.5 more to go
It's been 8.5 weeks since I first stepped into Vital.org as a flustered intern.
I have roughly 1.5 more weeks left before completing my tenure at the organisation which has provided me with my first glimpse into the working world.
You know how it is: an idealistic student always wrings his fingers in frustration as he counts the days till he can begin carving out his niche in the merciless corporate world; school is always inferior, and the unknown, alluring.
I used to be one of them.
One of those who thought the world of herself.
One who viewed herself as being capable of taking on the world.
How Daddy have changed me.
My amibtions, my plans, my hopes; everything has been altered, and I can barely recognise myself.
As the time draws near for me to verbalise the path which I have opted to walk down, the cries of disdain and disapproval from the people around me seem to ring louder and louder.
There is a fear of the unknown, but at the same time, I am armed with the assurance that where Daddy has guided me, there He will provide.
Oh yes, my dad flies to Bahrain tonight (tomorrow morning to be exact) for a business presentation and he'll be back on Friday afternoon.
Will miss him. I always do when he goes on these trips of his. Thank goodness this is one of his shorter excursions to all sorts of locales.
Yes, I am a daddy's girl at 22, and am not ashamed to admit it.
~ teach me how to love as You love, to give as You gave....
*~and you'll never know till you get there~*
Thursday, June 14, 2007
♥ 9:20 AM
Broken
That's how I have been feeling for the past couple of days.
I've had to be strong for the people whom I care about even though I barely have the strength to hoist myself up.
I've had to smile, hide behind my laughter and appear as if nothing's wrong.
I've been challenged to look past my own calvary, and to look to Him, to take on His yoke and burden instead.
The giants seem to be getting bigger and I, smaller.
The goliaths seem to be becoming more intimidating by the minute.
Just as it seems like there is no hope, I realise that right beside me every step of the way stands my Almighty.
Just as He has broken me, He will mold me.
He is egging me on.
He has lovingly put His heavenly armour on me.
He is beckoning me towards Him.
He is assuring me that there is nothing and noone who is bigger than Him.
With Him, it really is possible to smile through this storm, through the tears, the terror, through the heartache.
Just as He has broken me, He will mold me.
I'm so scared Daddy; the raging waters will consume me, they will drown me
Take my hand my beloved. We will face the darkness together, and overcome it.
Thank You Daddy, thank You...
*~and you'll never know till you get there~*
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
♥ 8:41 AM
The fullness of joy
Met Mr Sunshine for a much-needed session of sharing, and I was truly blessed. Hearing from him always encourages me; he really is a tough warrior of the Lord's.
I've been in a moody, pensive state for the past week or so, and I thank Daddy for the revelations, for the comfort, and also for the awesome fellowship with Clement last night.
Brought him to Nihon Mura at Revenue House and man, did we indulge. Unfortunately, I do not have the picture of us with a table filled with yummies - silly me left the camera in the car - but Clement does =)
Let's see, for the record (as far as I can remember), this is what we ordered and finished:
1. Salmon belly miso soup
2. Soft shell crab
3. Fried tofu
4. Tempura prawns (they were supposedly 'live')
5. Sashimi
6. Chawanmushi (yummylicious!)
7. 4 plates of assorted sushi
8. 'Special' green tea
9. Dessert made up of mango cubes, ice-cream, pudding, jelly, sago seeds (coloured ones), whipped cream, cherry, and a mount of shaved ice
Then it was off to town for some window shopping and more sharing, which I really enjoyed. For the record, the rather unique tasting bottle of 'liang teh' which Clement bought me is still sitting in the fridge; will finish it tonight =)
18 more days to go, and I'm sure I'm not the lone excited soul here.
Till that time, we'll have Planet Shakers to look forward to this Friday. (thanks so so so much for surprising me with those tickets Mr Sunshine!)
Oh, and my brave lil' sister got 2 (yes, 2!) wisdom teeth extracted yesterday, and I was relieved but amused to see her all cheery about the horrific experience. In fact, she went to bed later than I did last night, and was up by 7.30 this morning.
Just the thought of me going through the same procedure sends me into hysterics.
And they call me the stronger one....
I don't care what people will say
I'm running after You
*~and you'll never know till you get there~*
Friday, June 08, 2007
♥ 10:16 AM
22 days and counting
3 weeks more to Sydney, and I'm getting restless just thinking about how awesome the trip will be - it's going to be fantastically wonderfully, so don't even begin to think otherwise =P
Dreamt a little dream last night that got me all shook up. It was so vivid, and I remember it so clearly even after I have woken up - and this rarely happens to me.
Perhaps it's time to reach for that tub of comfort food called Phish Food (or any other Ben and Jerry's ice cream flavour) to calm those frazzled nerves.
In any case, this week has simply flown past, and I thank Daddy that it has been largely uneventful 5 days both at work and at home, apart from the long discussions I have had with my parents regarding my future career prospects.
Choices have to be made pretty soon, and I'm not sure if I'm entirely ready to do so. Regardless, I know that the Almighty's plans for me are the best ones, so I'm just going to follow Him, knowing that sheep are not exactly the smartest creatures on earth.
So, in the following weeks, there will be those looooooooong lunches (thanks Mr Aloy~!) to look forward to, as well as a nice Japanese dinner with Mr Sunshine =)
I'm my Father's happy little princess!
*~and you'll never know till you get there~*
Tuesday, June 05, 2007
♥ 9:20 AM
The complexities of life
If what Mr Sunshine said while we were walking back to my car after Pirates is true, then I am a walking contradiction.
If cows could really fly, then the moon is made of blue cheese.
If things were simpler, I would probably have an easier time dealing with all this.
My head's spinning just thinking about all this.
If Daddy would allow it, I would gladly accept His blessings.
*~and you'll never know till you get there~*
Sunday, June 03, 2007
♥ 1:45 PM
4 more to Sydney!
4 more long long weeks till our long-awaited trip to Sydney.
4 more arduous weeks till the much-anticipated end of my internship.
We recently received our armbands (they're red!) from Hillsong, and just looking at it fills me with excitement.
Just think: one whole week of seeking Daddy, the chance to fellowship with brothers and sisters from all over the world, rest, relaxation, and a whole lot of shopping with my lil' sister and Clement AKA Mr Sunshine.
I can hardly hardly wait for June 30th to descend upon us :)
On another note, attended An Evening With Friends with Glenn earlier this week - Monday night, to be exact - and have been unable to get their excellent rendition of "The Way You Look Tonight" out of my head since then.
The beautiful song has been one of my favourites for some time now, and the manner in which the choir delivered this track was oh-so-perfect.
Wish I could listen to it once more.
Anyway, tomorrow marks the seventh week (only?) of my internship, and the last of a certain Mr. Aloy's.
I bet somebody's grinning that pretty smile of his just thinking about it. :P
Effectively, this indicates that I would have to go through the torturous last 3 weeks of my internship without somebody trying (well actually he doesn't even need to try very hard) to make me giggle and grin into my computer monitor like a demented fool every 10 minutes or so.
Effectively, this also means that there would be no perky "good morninggggg~!" greetings for that painful last 3 weeks.
How awfully depressing.
That would certainly make every draggy, monotonous work day seem much longer than it already is. I am already beginning to dread what it would be like in actuality.
Amazing how you can get accustomed to having someone around within such a short period of time. I have surprised even my old, cynical self.
On another more joyful note, these past weeks have see me drawing closer to Daddy again. I have rebelled, drifted, been anything but an obedient little girl, but He has patiently admonished me gently, and taken me back into His loving, welcoming arms.
How I have missed my Father's comforting warmth and familiar scent.
When all else fades, remind me that You are all that matters.
Love You so much Daddy.
*~and you'll never know till you get there~*
Friday, June 01, 2007
♥ 9:39 PM
Lead me to the cross
So much has happened these past few days that I do not even know where to start.
Maybe there really is no point in saying anything.
At the end of the day, I do wonder how many people are actually aware and accepting of the person behind the perpetual laughter and gaiety.
When the storm blows over, I do wonder how many will still be by my side.
Maybe it really doesn't matter after all.
Lead me to the cross
Where Your love poured out
Bring me to my knees
Lord I lay me down
Rid me of myself
I belong to You
Lead me, lead me to the cross
*~and you'll never know till you get there~*