Tuesday, February 03, 2009
♥ 7:29 PM
Hiatus over....sortaIt's been over 3 months since I last blogged.
So here I am, at 24, still single, and 2 months into my new job.
The past year has been relatively good; this is not to say that there hasn't been ups and downs.
I've gone through a few jobs, Alpha Track - the most enjoyable 3 months of my life - and now stands a girl who is more in love with her Saviour than before.
The thought of closing down my blog did occur to me once or twice, but somehow I can't bring myself to do that, not when I've had it for 6 years now.
Wow, 6 years. Seems like only yesterday that I set it up lovingly, spending hour upon hour beautifying it with the newest blogskins and features.
Where did that idealistic girl go?
I guess, sooner or later, we all have to grow up; not that I've lost myself, but rather, I've matured, mellowed in many ways.
That's not really a bad thing...is it?
*~and you'll never know till you get there~*
Thursday, October 23, 2008
♥ 4:55 PM
New discoveriesThe interview with the recruitment team of SMU's MPA program was a humiliating and humbling one.
I was insulted, belittled, and my faith, deemed of having little worth.
But through it all, I know that the Lord was with me, and He taught me yet again, that my place is not in the market place.
And yet again, I have broken His heart by trying to take matters into my own hands.
Thinking back, it was for a simple reason that the Lord gave that me that sermon to preach on Tuesday morning: to remind me, gently, that it is time to take my place.
So, just as what I shared during devotion time, I need to face up to and to accept my call, and to keep my gaze fixed squarely on my precious Lord Jesus Christ.
Although the experience this afternoon was heart-breaking, it was necessary.
To die to myself.
To set my dreams aside for God's.
To fulfill my destiny.
Nobody said that this path was going to be easy.
And indeed, it isn't.
But as long as I have my Jesus, that's enough.
Praise the Lord for His great mercies.
You will never walk alone... *~and you'll never know till you get there~*
Friday, October 03, 2008
♥ 10:48 PM
Back to realityI'm back from MIT with a bad cold and cough.
If you had told me 6 months back that I would be an Alpha Tracker who has completed her first mission trip, I would probably have called you a looney bin to your face and stoned you or something.
But God had other plans.
I'm now 4 weeks to completing the Track and only the good Lord knows what is in store for me upon commencement at the end of the month.
So Philippines was an enchanting place with beautiful people, and it was a wonderful 10 days spent with the loveliest people you will ever meet.
The same can't be said for the food though. I wouldn't say that it's nasty or anything, but just not quite suited to my taste palate.
Loads of Jollibee and Chow King does not a happy me make. Ate an entire balut too! Google it to find out what it is exactly :)
Oh yes, the team experienced 2 minor earthquakes and a typhoon while we were there. And yes, I fell quite ill on the 4th day, and it was only by God's grace and strength that I was able to carry on.
Emotionally, the illness had broken me down, but the love that the Lord showed me through the Trackers really sustained me and spurred me on.
Looking back, my zany roommates - we have called ourselves the Salah Sisters (don't ask why...you don't wanna know) - the entire team as well as the MIT has brought about a new perspective when it comes to loving people the way in which the Lord wants us to.
I still have no idea as to what to do when November rolls around, but for now, there's still that Life Paper to be turned in.
Ahhh....God is good.
*~and you'll never know till you get there~*
Saturday, September 20, 2008
♥ 2:34 PM
Here I go!Will be embarking on my first MIT come Tuesday, and I forsee 10 days of hard, hard hard work all for the sake of the extension of Daddy's mighty kingdom :)
I've a sermon to finish and worship to prepare.
And did I mention that I've yet to begin packing?
Maybe it's time to panic a little.
So yesterday brought to a close week 6 of AT. How time flies...when we get back from MIT, 8 weeks would have come and gone.
And I'm that much closer to having to decide where the future will take me.
It's kinda scary, but I guess it's time to grow up and assume my place in the working world.
I don't like it, but then again, responsibility is never an easy thing to bear.
*~and you'll never know till you get there~*
Friday, September 12, 2008
♥ 6:37 PM
DIstinctively me...Haven't been updating for some time now.
Naughty me.
Anyway week 5 of AT just came to a close an hour ago, and the MIT's happening in about 10 days :)
Time for the committee to fret over what is going to happen during our outreach event. Talk about being pressed for time *sweats*
I can safely say that today's lesson on DISC profiling is one of the most interesting thus far - this is not to say that the rest of our lessons have been les-than-useful.
Turns out that I am still a DI.
And I make up 50% of those with a high-D profile in my Track team.
Amidst the fun and laughter, I do pray that we will be able to remain cohesive, as we approach the much-awaited mission trip and the dreaded tasting of
balut.The wrestling with God has died down a little, and now, it is time for me to just follow Him, knowing that He is my Jehovah Jireh.
All it takes, is that step of faith.
Which seems so large at this juncture....
*~and you'll never know till you get there~*
Sunday, August 31, 2008
♥ 10:17 AM
The callHaven't been updating in a while.
It's been a tiring but exciting journey as an AlphaTracker - we went through Prophetic Ministries I this week and it was such an awesome experience knowing that the Lord speaks prophetically through every single one of us.
Pastor Danny's message yesterday evening confirmed some things which the Lord has been speaking to me about, and I guess to me, this issue is pretty much a done deal.
However, I'm going to continue seeking the Lord and trusting Him to open the appropriate doors in His time.
Went shopping yesterday and bought a whole lot of stuff as companions for my new purchases in KL - well actually it's only 3 articles of clothing - which are black (with a bit of white).
Will look forward to wearing them in the week to come as we advance into week 4(already??) of Track.
MIT is coming right up and there's a part of me that remains apprehensive, probably due to the fact that I've never been away from home for such an extended period of time before, and possibly brought on by my packing woes.
There's so much I want to share, yet words are not coming as easily to me as I would like them to.
For now, this is all my brain can generate.
*~and you'll never know till you get there~*
Monday, August 18, 2008
♥ 8:42 PM
UglinessComes in many forms.
Mere physical unattractiveness is simply insufficient to cause someone to appear ugly in the eyes of others.
More often than not, it is the heart of an individual which has the power to determine the beauty of a person.
I believe this is why the Lord teaches us to guard our hearts.
The weekend trip to KL with my cell has shown me the inadequacies of some of my cell members, as well as the ugliness which lies buried deep within me.
Self-centredness, pettyness and disregard for others were some of the things which were revealed as facades were torn down during our time there.
Personally, a friendship which I have come to treasure has been rendered valueless in the eyes of the other party.
And the truth hurts. Kinda.
I guess somehow, I've always known that fact; choosing to ignore something doesn't make it go away.
Tempers flared, and I've stumbled him as well as myself.
Apologies have gone out, but to no avail.
It is frightening at first, partly because I know that this is the start of a battle that is spiritual, as I prepare for the local evangelism mission coming up as well as the mission trip next month.
But I'm well aware that where the Lord guides, He provides; as long as I'm fighting the battles that He wants me to fight, He will give the victory to me.
As for now, I'm so tired that I just want to curl up on my bed and sleep the hurt away.
Missing you a whole lot.
*~and you'll never know till you get there~*
